falling

Yesterday after a much needed family melt down I decided that I really needed to escape from the war zone. I haven't moved my car since saturday, so needless to say it was basically a giant ice cube on wheels and digging it out was no easy task. I started by trying to get all of the snow off with a broom, it worked in some areas but as I was doing this it started snowing again and I quickly realized it was pointless. Once I cleared all of the windows, I soon saw that there was a huge sheet of ice on my windshield and there was no way in hell I was going to be able to escape unless I was able to melt that off. Sooooo me being the smart girl that I am I decided to stand on top of my car and pour water on the windows to make the ice melt. It was working but then I a little incident happened. I guess I should have started this story off by saying that I was talking on my phone while attempting this large task, so basically I was doing everything with one hand. Anyways, here I am phone in one hand, water bottle in the other, standing on top of my car and I fucking slip. What a glorious fall it was too! I slipped off of my car and slammed my head on the side of it while keeping my phone in my hand and continuing the conversation as best I could. It hurt so fucking bad!! I still have a headache and I nervously asked my sister/bf whether or not I was going to die in my sleep because I'm pretty sure I had a concussion : ( Sad times. I'm so glad that its not going to be Christmas tomorrow. My mother has decided that the family doesn't get to do christmas until we can all be together because my brother wasn't able to make it home. I'm not even going to get started on how that makes me feel - I'm just glad that my other family, the family that I've made for myself is here and I can be with them and love them. As I get older I am realizing that while I love my family and I always will, we will never be the family that we once were and its time that everyone started acting accordingly.